I am grateful.

I've been quite nostalgic with past love interests, more so in the sense that I been thinking of the feelings each one of them had given me in the past. Love is not off barriers for me, but in truth I am so immersed within myself,  I enjoy the nights I get to sleep alone in peace and the days I have completely to myself, carefree. I am grateful, truly extremely grateful for the love I have experienced in the past. And I can not feel bitter in any way. I learned not only about each individual but more than anything about myself. They were all reflections of who I was at the time. I can not deny that part of my life or my journey. I am filled with love even now thinking about it, nothing was in vain. When it is time, when I am ready to experience someone who vibrates as deeply within and without as I do, I will be ready for a man to teach me things, as I with him.  Within those teachings will blossom truth, I only imagine how will get lost and loose track of time similar to that of my meditation trips into different realms. It will be something I perhaps may not have ever imagined I could obtain. You will be powerful, something I have never experienced before, and in turn I will know you. I will never hesitate to speak or be my true self. And neither will he. I am grateful for all old lovers, and all the energy we shared. It taught me so many things about myself. I am grateful.